Monday, November 1, 2010 @ 3:23 AM
being active in silat doesnt make me a silat . being part of a bowling family doesnt make me a bowler . playing sepak takraw doesnt make me a takraw player .
ohkayy , my friend call me an all rounder . i think its a bad thing . being jack of all trades is not as good as being King of the trade . you get what i mean ?
I think my confidence level is in critical condition at the moment . someone , cheer me up please ? i might appear calm but im broken inside , jyeah , broken in silent .
i dont know but i seem to have issues on me being overweight . i use to well , 'heck care' about these appearence stuff . being fat isnt good . it slows down your movements . i want to be fast , fast , fast , in silat though .
Thank you friends for telling me that i am super fast for my weight .
Thank you for telling me that at least i am active .
Thank you for everything .
I think its useless for me in learning silat . i remember IMG , this junior of mine by the name of izzul , he keeps on punching me i dont know if its for fun but the last blow , well , it certainly make me vomit . a sucker punch in the stomach , empty stomach . well .
"I should have , i should have react " thats what my mind's telling me but my heart telling me not to . well , i am soft . i cant fight people . i am only good in words fighting but hands on , im too soft . i dont have a heart .
i dont have that ruthlessness in me . i want it , pretty please . i want to kick some people's ass without feeling guilty . Its not a good thing though .
AHAHA , i think i am fond of somebody !
I recently read that love is entirely a matter of chemistry. That must be why girls treat me like toxic waste.
